under pressure

if you asked me to name one of the most annoying things in the world, it would be pressure. cus no matter who you are, you just can't escape it. and you can never truly escape pressure the older you get. and that is because people will always be there to judge you. no matter who you are, if you don't do something right or if you don't look a certain way then you are going to be judged and pressured into changing who you are.

see, this is why i sometimes think back to my child hood days. they were great wern't they. you had no responsibility, your parents were practically your slaves and when you met someone the same age  as you they were themselves. purely themselves. and you would be yourself. because you didn't no anything different. but as the years pass and you grow, of corse your going to change. but what you have to remember is that everyone your age is going through the exact same thing. some are just better at hiding it than others.

but i would have to say, one of things that make me cringe is relationships. i mean, good for you if you have a boyfriend and your in a normal relationship. i am happy for you. but what some people have to realise is that you don't have to have a boyfriend/ girlfriend to make you happy. im sixteen and at the moment, most of my friends have boyfriends/ girlfriends. im happy for them. but it's just when i am hanging out with a coupple of mates and their boyfriends, i feel like a 5th wheel. i am actually saying that i have sat in a feild watching two of my friends make out with two of my other friends. on that same day, i had one friend telling me that she was going to set me up with a guy so i don't end up becoming a 5th wheel. TOO LATE.

i don't want a boyfriend at the moment. i mean, what are we supposed to do? i find that the situation in too limited to have a proper relationship with someone cus you both can't drive, your bodies are chaning which adds the added pressure of sex and if someone you like doesn't like you back then some people tend to milk it for everything that it's worth, stinging the other person alone. thats not right, get a life. but of corse it's cool to have a boyfriend and to have sex and to do drugs. hey, who am i to argue with the trends?

laterz